October 3, 2014
More Then This

I looked in the mirror and say to
myself “there must be more then
Feeling like I’m am stuck in this abyss
Praying to God about unanswered
prayer has me feeling like this
How long will my angels just sit there
and sit
Watching me stumble upon hand and
Tormented by my memories
Feeling like I’m going crazy
On the outside you’d look at me and
think nothing was fazing me
I’ve lied to God with open arms to my
Then I wonder why depression is the
only feeling I can summon
Then I look in the mirror and say to
myself “there must be more then
Feeling like I’m stuck in this abyss

May 22, 2014
The People’s Champion

I was made in God’s image
I’m God bodied
But don’t worship me
Let me just be your champion
That why my auntie calls me Roc
They said if the shoe fits then lace’em up
I’ve walked the same path as Hercules
Greener grass on the other side
And this story won’t end in a tragedy

April 13, 2014
Special Touch

I’ve been down this road far too many
Given my heart to so many
In the end I’m always left singing the
same song and dance
Never showing my emotions
The tears just falls into my empty
Until it becomes to much to handle
and I just break
Just when I thought I ran out hope
She grabbed both of my hands and
something felt different
I told her be careful when trying to fix
a broken heart
you may just get cut on the shattered
So many tiny pieces with jagged
She looks me in the eye as I try to
look strong
But we both know inside I’m fragile
I just wanna find someone who can
make differences
Sow up the holes in my umbrella
Teach me a new song to dance to
Make me feel like we turned back the
hands of time and we’ve been
together since the beginning
What a perfect ending to a love story
Unfortunately I don’t know what the
author has in store me
I just know that I’ll do anything to feel
that special touch
That touch that gives me reason to
So as I take her hand in this leap of
I pray that the landing won’t end in a
beautiful disater

April 4, 2014
The Devils Party

No sleep for the wicked
So I’m up late
Temptation keeps my heart racing
Traped in these vivid visions
Loving every moment
I know I’ll feel guilty in the morning
  But who really cares about that
Are these demons imaginary
Lusting over my body like I’m their
God make me pure but not at this
I’m a born sinner; so can you blame
Screaming to the sky hakuna matata
It means no worries for the rest of
  your life
So when i die and fade away
Then I’ll worry a my consequences
By my right now my demons are
They’re making noises; it’s a party and
  I’m invited 

April 3, 2014
These Moments

I’m particularly in favor of the night
A cool breeze as the moon shines
On top of a hill with my headphones
Inhailing weed smoke I’m vibbing
Becoming one with the music
Nothing in the world matters right
I’m just living in the moment
Moments like this I feel at peace
In this soft grass I wanna just fall
But the stars are shining bright with the moon in the back ground
No clouds to cover this beautiful
So how could I sleep through an
  amazing moment like this
I thank God for these moments
Reality can be fucked up at times
Sometimes I just wanna grab both
  hands of grandfather clock
Have everything around me to take
But that’s wishful thinking
Time stops for no one
That’s why when your able to you gotta grab moments like these and
  cherish it

March 31, 2014
His Final Moments

It was a beautiful morning
But his mind was foggy
Demons terrorizing his soul
Depression in his eyes
Enough is enough
His body can’t any more
If he ended it today how many would
  Even miss him
How long would it take to realize he
  was missing
With no friends he’s a loner
He’s socially awkward so he hides his
  voice away
Normally he was ok with being alone
But he was going through some hard
sometimes when it rains it pours and
  at this point in his life it was
O how he yearn for a shoulder to cry
Or just a little human affection 
He stands in the mirror wonder how
  things got this way
Maybe it was from being home
Never really knowing how to talk to
Every body going out; never being
For a second he fantasize of a happy
  future; maybe everything will be ok
Then coming to the collusion that this
  was just wishful thinking
Before he grabbed is weapon of
He said a little prayer
And Now I’m praying
God I hope you understand the pain he was
  going through
And I know suicide is an unforgivin
But some people just aren’t built for
  this world
Even though your word saying there’s
  nothing we can’t handle
But where there’s no self-esteem those
  words fall into deaf ears
So have mercy on his soul as we take
  this moment of silence for all those
  who never had a shoulder to cry on

March 30, 2014
Facing Reality

I blame all my sinful ways on my
But me and my teammate both know
  that they’ve let go of the steering
  wheel along time ago
Their in the passenger seat feeling oh
  so proud of them self
every night it seems to be a new one
  starring at me
Inside its getting crowded
I lost my way I’m in to deep
How much longer will my teammate
  be here keeping me together
If he ever breaks its bye bye russell
Totally losing myself
Turning into the person that stairs
  back at me smiling in the mirror
That spiritual body I’ve been fighting
  to hide
Before this happens I rather just die
Leaving this earth while I still have
  something special left inside

March 29, 2014
My Little “Fuck You” Poem

Unfortunately I wasn’t there to enjoy
  your down fall
They barrier you before I could spit
  on your grave
Yes I’m a Christian and I know I
  should show total forgiveness
But demon on my shoulders won’t
  allow that to happen
Its not like you deserve it
Turn into Biship from Juice and tell ya
momma you ain’t Shit
You’ve been dead to me since our last
I can’t believe you got to me enough
  to write this poem
At least this way my hatred for you is
  now written in stone

March 13, 2014
The Calm Before The Storm

On the year of the horse
In the high lighted month of the pieces Donna Williams gave a birth to a baby
24 years later the stars have realigned
This rose that grew from concrete has been sitting in his chambers
Scaeming and plotting patently
Slowly Importing my word all around
  the world
Enough people are listening
So when I stumble the gasp from my
  peers become noticeable
So much pressure it’s hard to breathe
Repeating the Lord’s prayer with the
  little breath I have left
I strive to be the people champion
What your seeing right now is called
  the calm before the storm
And soon your gonna feel my reign
your gonna have no choice but to
  watch my movement
Watch as my people march to the
  sound to the beat of the drums
Our voice will thunder as we chant
  our cadences
And the fire in our eyes says there’s
  no stopping us
That there’s no more telling us what
  we can’t do
Untied we’ll stand and march right to
  the top
No more questioning who’s
  running this town tonight
So follow suite or just enjoy the show   Highlight these words as these pages
Listen to my voice as this prophecy is

February 17, 2014
If I Die Today Let These Be My Final Words

I write fucked up poems for fuckin’
Reality bores me so I entertain my
Stuck in a web of sins; God please
  forgive me
Strip me from this pedestal; my head
  is getting to heavy
My body is getting lazy
I’m tired of flip flopping back and
  forth between saint and sinner
Inside I’m torchered
So if you forgive me tonight and my
  soul is set to rest by sunrise
Let these be my final words
Because Lord I come to you as a
In the pass I haven’t been humble but
  I’m here to repent for my demons
I know my Lord was risen from the
So I ask you on this final night that
  Jesus takes control of this wheel for
  these final moments

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